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Pregnancy
My Pregnancy Story
Getting pregnant was crossed off the agenda along time ago. As a child I very much wanted to have my own kids. I thought it was the coolest thing to be able to have your own to play with them. I guess I thought they were like barbie dolls. I didn't realize that were the biggest responsibility any human could ever have. If you think about it Obama's wouldn't even have a job if it wasn't for people repopulating.
Things slowly were put into perspective for me. The older I got the more responsibilities there were. What I could push off on my mom and sister I would. I was always the baby and never had to deal with such things because there were people to always hold my hand. So I decided babies just weren't for me.
I meet Michael when I was twenty four years old. He was thirty eight. It was a love hate relationship but we've surprisingly made it work for 6 years now. Still through out most of our relationship having kids was a big NO. Even though Michael wanted a child with me.
Im thirty now and in the last couple of years a lot has changed for me emotionally and physically. Its almost like all women are programed at some point in their life to start desiring babies. Well that's what was happening to me. Even though I was feeling the baby thing we weren't trying for pregnancy. It just happened.
I was 2 months into my pregnancy before I knew. Michael jokingly had made a few comments. His son had made a few about my weight increase. Also I had been on Zyprexa, sleep aid, that had made me gain enormous amount of weight. Which is what I thought the source of my problem had been.
I went to visit my sister in georgia for two weeks and the whole time she was like "are you sure your not pregnant....Well I think you are!!" So I decided to go and get a pregnancy test. There were no if ands or buts about it I was pregnant. I wanted to have an accurate answer so I went to the doctor. My mother was in the room with me and it made me very uncomfortable. I was waiting for her facial expression of disappointment. The Doctor came back and before he could get the door shut he said "you are defiantly pregnant." I was sooooo happy with the biggest grin on my face. I looked over at mom and she was smiling too. Not the fake one the sincere one. What a relief. Then my doctor asked me to lay down so he could examine my belly to see about how far along I was. Four months he told me.
I immediately went home and called Michael to tell him the news. I told him the news. The doctor said that I was four months pregnant and he went silent......he said "how is that possible? I wasn't with you four months ago." My heart dropped. This was suppose to be the most exciting time of my life and Im getting accused of being unfaithful. While balling my eyes out I told him "there has been no one else. The doctor must be wrong then because he didn't do an actual sonogram. We would just have to get an OBGYN to get accurate information. Everything turned out fine. I was on 2 months pregnant and Michaels soul was at peace. He was able to move on to enjoy our pregnancy.
I meet Michael when I was twenty four years old. He was thirty eight. It was a love hate relationship but we've surprisingly made it work for 6 years now. Still through out most of our relationship having kids was a big NO. Even though Michael wanted a child with me.
Im thirty now and in the last couple of years a lot has changed for me emotionally and physically. Its almost like all women are programed at some point in their life to start desiring babies. Well that's what was happening to me. Even though I was feeling the baby thing we weren't trying for pregnancy. It just happened.
I was 2 months into my pregnancy before I knew. Michael jokingly had made a few comments. His son had made a few about my weight increase. Also I had been on Zyprexa, sleep aid, that had made me gain enormous amount of weight. Which is what I thought the source of my problem had been.
I went to visit my sister in georgia for two weeks and the whole time she was like "are you sure your not pregnant....Well I think you are!!" So I decided to go and get a pregnancy test. There were no if ands or buts about it I was pregnant. I wanted to have an accurate answer so I went to the doctor. My mother was in the room with me and it made me very uncomfortable. I was waiting for her facial expression of disappointment. The Doctor came back and before he could get the door shut he said "you are defiantly pregnant." I was sooooo happy with the biggest grin on my face. I looked over at mom and she was smiling too. Not the fake one the sincere one. What a relief. Then my doctor asked me to lay down so he could examine my belly to see about how far along I was. Four months he told me.
I immediately went home and called Michael to tell him the news. I told him the news. The doctor said that I was four months pregnant and he went silent......he said "how is that possible? I wasn't with you four months ago." My heart dropped. This was suppose to be the most exciting time of my life and Im getting accused of being unfaithful. While balling my eyes out I told him "there has been no one else. The doctor must be wrong then because he didn't do an actual sonogram. We would just have to get an OBGYN to get accurate information. Everything turned out fine. I was on 2 months pregnant and Michaels soul was at peace. He was able to move on to enjoy our pregnancy.
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